Stress, stress and more stress

In my second year of Junior College, it has become very evident to me that feeling stressed out is inevitable, and in fact a very common occurrence, and with that, it is sadly but surely applicable to me now. A Division is around the corner with just about 2 more weeks to go before officially starting... but at the same time my NAPFA is going to start as well.. as well as.. my common tests. And they all clash at the same time. With almost no chance for me to bounce back from each individual activity before moving on. I really dread this next few weeks as it will be very,very busy. I hate to complain but with the teachers piling homework over homework on us and the constant trainings and physical activity, i am utterly exhausted and have no idea how i am going to last through the next 2 weeks, although i sincerely hope it will be okay and that i will pull through... But its okay! you can do it Iris! just endure and persevere a little more, everything will pass by soon!

Once again....

Hello again blog, it has once again been practically an eternity since i last entered an entry. And i must say, that what i have previously wrote up to 3 years ago has certainly proved to be cancerous, not only to myself, but also to others. My deepest apologies to those who had to read those cancerous entries and bear through all that. Now that i have found this blog again, allow me to attempt to make it better by trying to occasionally post so as update this blog on my live as well as push my embarrassment to the back ( UGH) so now let me explain where i am in life: i am now 17 going 18 years old in about 2 more months, currently in a junior collage and is due to take GCE 'A' levels this year. I have so far been in 0 relationships still, with honestly, not much desire to get one too, and have definitely gained a lot , a lot of weight. Pretty sure i am about 10-20 kg heavier than my weight in secondary 2 , which is quite depressing.... sighhh. Oh well, i shall bid farewell for now as i have homework to do and must really get it all done in the quickest time possible , so as to prolong my sleeping time. ta ta for now!

Heading into a new year

Okay soooo i decided to blog just a few more hours away to 2015 , the last blog in 2014. Okay so now its the holidays and sadly school is going to start in 2 days  😭 honeslty im not done with hol hw and im still very lazy to complete it 😂 i feel kinda happy now becauee during the holidays i managed to bond more with the cool kids and i think we are on better terms now ( I HOPE ) it was difficult at first and im still still relatively quiet around them but hey! Its an improvement then totally feeling awkward 😝 ANYWAYSSSS im super scared of being sec 4, i mean like 'o'levels are in 11 months and i still dont really have SUPERAWESOMEMEGAULTRASUPERBWHATTHESHITISTHISCRAP grades to help me 😭😭😭😭😭 *le iris cri* so next year imma gonna hafta step up ma game
~[>_<]~ and now im really nervous to know if im in sch team next year 😰 i really wanna be in ;_; but the sec 2s this year are really good. Their way better than i am so im really scared 😭 okay then, back to doing boring chinese that Qin empire set me out to do 😒😒😒 byeeee and see you next year!!! 😊😊😊☺☺☺😉😉😉😍😍😍😘😘😘😚😚😗😗😙😙😜😜😝😝😛😛😁😁😌😌❤❤💗💗

Cool kidsss ruleee👍👍

Life so far...?

Its been a long time since i posted so i shall post once again hehe 😝 these few months have been trying and very, VERY difficult :( had to manage time between studies and netball and band 😢 at first i actually thought i should give up on netball and tell my coach that i didnt want to be in the school team.... BUT im glad i didnt in the end 😊 i initally talked to my parents and sisters about it and they opened up my mind about being committed to my cca and thats when i realised that that was the reason i joined netball in the first place, to get into team and play for school :) and also a little help from Kuroko No Basuke 😁😁 ( hehe paiseh i like manga lah ) that stated a true fact that everybody wants to win for their school and they would fight so very hard for it. It made me open my eyes and brought back the very passion of Liew Iris in sec 1, the girl who desperately wanted to join netball and resorted to joining in the training even though i was selected. It made me smile honestly and yeah, i resolved to work hard for netball. I started to plan which days i will study and also made sure i at least studied 2 days before each test i had, i hope it works :)) lets hope my studies can also be pulled up :p

" The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart."

                                      -Helen Keller

Hello hello!!

Hahahas its been reallyyyyyyyy long since i last posted so here i am! Okay so far 2014 is not that bad... my studies are quite okay except there's homework practically EVERYDAY and a lot too. See Iris? That's what you get for choosing triple sci double math eng chi elective geog & ss , the hardest combi ever :/  oh well my other friends say that art is difficult too so yeah :p
Moving on, i sorta sorta have a guitar(?) Cos like its new and i use it BUT the church bought it so I'm on long time loan. Honestly , i love it a lot really but its not really mine you know? Like i wanna have a guitar that i can call mine and not worry that im lying and stuff or that it will be taken away from me . Ireally wanna boast and say : " Look! I finally have my own guitar that i will never have to return it to anyone or have to share it !" I'm not like being selfish cause I'm sure there are some things n your life that you don't really wanna share right? And to me, this guitar is precious, its a long awaited item that i yearned for and now that its been passed to me its not mine :( so yeah i hope that some day i can have a guitar that is solely mine.
Yours truly,
Iris

2nd Family

SUPPPPPP! ok gonna talk about stuff recently :) today we ( b div) had our last training before break-ing for EOYs :) Training was damn awesome today and had lots of laughter! :D haha and ms loo gave us non-iced bon bons ^^ oso aft training we had a HUGGGGGEEEEEEEEEE camwhoring session! thanks for the laughter and the many quarters of game we played today gals! :)
Okay now is the more emo part of this post, i shall state this CLEARLY first i do not hate any person now ok? Soooo anywayss people around me are becoming emo and depressed now :( i want to help them but how? They dun wanna tell me anything... -I want to help but what can i do?- and they have ( sort of) resorted to THAT  ... haishh.... I hope everything would be fine tmr.. :(
Moving on.... I have 2 dreams so far, and i really really wanna acomplish them :) i wish that God will support me for my 2nd dream. For the first one, i wish that someday i can do that with the one i love.. :) *Sorry if you cant understand what im saying >_< only some ppl understand* okay thats all for today bye! :)

-Im thankful for the 2nd family NV NETBALL has given me-

Confused

Hi ppl! Im blogging now cos my stupid computer would not load any faster -.- *GRRRRRRRRRRRR* Hahas so yeah lemme blog about stuff that happened recently :). Okay about 2 weeks ago me n my friends were still happy and fine with each other until i messed up(?) i think. Anyways shall not add in too much details but they got pissed at me wouldnt talk to me talked bad about me and all that shit. REALLY REALLY REALLY very confused right now. I feel that after i heard from both sides i  concluded that both were lying. Why did i even think they would? If i needed to use a word to describe myself at that time i would use the words : Stupid, Gullible, Dumb, Naive. Yeah so 1 talks bad about the other and the other talks about that 1 and now they are besties?? :/ My mind cant comprehend all this bullshit. So anyways they call me fat bitch or whatever names and ignore me because of a minor reflection that we needed to write. I know it was harsh but thats the frickin truth. I didnt spare myself from that statement too you know?? But nooo you guys are cold to me. Ugh.... Nvm if u guys still wanna remain cold then by all means continue. Im not gonna pinpoint anyone esp to take the blame cos we were all at fault. After all its not worth my energy.

P.S. DAMNED COMPUTER IS STILL NOT WORKINGGGGG *RAGEEEE*

If you expect nothing from anybody, you're never disappointed
- Sylvia Plath,  The Bell Jar